happy

-painted nails make me happy

-reading novels instead of textbooks make me happy

-watching mum teach 30 or so people makes me happy

-feeling the dogs brush past my leg makes me very happy

-talking with bec about uni makes me happy

-Aarif lee's (李治廷) pretty face makes me happy

-"Echoes of the rainbow" (starring Aarif) is the best movie i've watched in the past 3 years. it made me happy.

-sleeping makes me happy

-finally letting go completely, makes me happy.

What is your favorite game? i like all games:)

Favorite color: sometimes red, sometimes blue

Least favorite color: hmm, none.

Do you like to drive fast? hehe..

Do you like thunderstorms? depends

Do you eat the stems of broccoli? um, they're okay.

What was your first car? this yellow and red thing from toys r us. i was 2?

If you could have any job, what would it be? volunteer doctor

Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? aehrindfs

What's under your bed? sometimes my dogs, sometimes the cookie monster

What are your favorite sports to watch? dunno. maybe football? like when korea played in the finals or something.

Single biggest intense pain? breaking up with ivan

The best places you have ever been? haven't been to such a place yet.

Hamburgers or hot dogs? Hamburgers

What is your occupation? High school leaver

What was the last thing you ate? toast

Do you wish on stars? yes:)

If you were a crayon, what color would you be? rainbow?:)

Last incoming call on your cell phone? driving lecturer

Last outgoing call on your cell phone? naima

What's your favorite restaurant? it's not the place, its the people you go with:)

Favorite food? Anything:) maybe eel rice.

Britney Spears is a skank--agree or disagree? whats a skank?

What type of music do you dislike most? repetitive ones

What was the last thing you bought? movie ticket for Prince of Persia

Do you take illegal drugs? nope

Does someone have a crush on you? no

Do you really know all the words to the national anthem? does HK hv a national anthem?

Favorite drink? water. what? is healthy!

Favorite alcoholic drink? ummm, so far its JD & coke

Do you believe in love at first sight? strangely, yes.

Where were you for Valentine's Day? at home i think

What's your favorite animal? dogs, and everything else except mosquitoes and cockraoches

What do you think about most? i don't know. i talk to myself and i get confused. i used to think alot about the future. but now my mind is kinda blank.

Do you like to play in the rain? what's my blog url? ;)

Are you a risk taker? i think so

Have you ever been to jail? Not yet

How many states have you lived in? two

Do you wear contacts or glasses? Both

Hugs or kisses? Hugs

Living arrangements? what?

Who is your best friend(s)? midori, nai, bec, lids, carol, bindi

What do you sleep in? t shirt n shorts

Biggest pet peeve? overly talkative ppl. the sound of knife screeching on plate. or pencil screeching on paper.

I have low tolerance for people who... talk too much

Do you sleep with the TV on? no

Do you have a TV in your bedroom? No

Are you good at keeping secrets? i think so

How do you spell relief? _______

Parents still together? kind of

Can you handle the truth? sometimes no

Current car? dont have

Are you in love? with?

Hair color? black

What are you afraid of? rejection

Last time you cried? yesterday

Friend you've had the longest? a lot la:)

Best friends? you hv short term memory

Favorite car? again u hv short term memory

Number of keys on your keyring? dun hv

Favorite day of the week? friday

Favorite shampoo? pantene something

Day or night? both.

Best advice you've ever received? if you love something, let it go, if it comes back, its yours. if it doesnt, it was never meant to be in the first place.

Favorite type of music? slow

Your biggest weakness? pride

Biggest fear? Losing my loved ones

Are you close to your parents? Yea

Do you swear? sometimes

Favorite song at the moment? cant think

Read books? yes:) finally hv time to start again

Vegetable you love/hate? love all, except ginger, if ginger is a vegetable.

Worst habits? cant think. quite a few

*In a boyfriend/girlfriend*

Personality? Fun,playful, kind hearted, mature, loves family and animals.

Style of clothing? casual

Do they have to be popular? No

Kiss on the first date? maybe

Sex on the first date? no

pucker your lips like the balloon tied up part bit

"The difference between genius and stupidity is genius has its limits." - Albert Einstien

lalalalallalalllalaa. london bridge is falling down falling down. omg, is anyone else bored? i'm so freakin blandified....i want to like play hopscotch and chase after a beach ball.
i want to go to school -_- come to think of it...there's 12 weeks left till i leave penang. 4 weeks left till the exams. wait....4 weeks..?! shit. bye!

Kim Yuna:

"The moment I fall in love, My body has no limits.

Me eyes look towards the unlimited space.

My body becomes as peaceful as never before.

My wrist holds all the power that I have.

My muscle makes me stronger.

My body shows everything of myself.

My hearts beats stronger.

This is love"

you make me proud to be a half-korean :)

i wish..

things for you, whatever they are, do not have to be this complicated. i wish you didn't have to worry or fear or feel upset. i wish the bad things would leave you, and that you'd step back into our circle of friends, because we're having so much fun, and you deserve to share this kind of happiness. look at N, she was upset, but she's happy now. she's content:) And both Bs have once been troubled, by emotional problems, but they've managed to find their way. i have always thought of you as one of the happiest girls amongst my friends, and one of the most mature too. so do you deserve to be constantly riding on this emotional rollercoaster? you know life is bigger than this moment. be happy. so you, whatever's troubling you, may your troubles melt like lemondrops :) . and i know you understand that by worrying about it wouldn't change what has happened. don't force yourself to kill your emotions or anything, that's unhealthy. but don't let the thought weigh heavily on your mind. take this as a lesson, a very important lesson, and i shall learn from it too.
i'm not saying that you're wrong, if i were you i might be doing the same thing, spending the same amount of time with that one person. but don't make the same mistake i did - because at least i still had time to mend things. now its different, its coming to the end of our school years, and i don't want to remember you as the girl that i loved but the girl who was always too busy with something else to be there for us. but its okay, i'm just saying. you do whatever makes you the happiest kay?
i miss you, and i'm sure the other girls miss you too.


remember, let go. K once told me, "if it makes you unhappy, don't talk about it. if it makes you unhappy, don't do it."

love you, you're a beautiful soul.

study tip!

if you don't already know this,

To Do Lists can save lives.

be realistic when you make your list! my suggestion is to make daily lists. like go for Things to do Today, instead of Things to do this Week. cos that way it's easier to follow, and make it a rule for yourself that you won't go to bed until you've crossed out everything on your list. Use a huge red marker to do the crossing out - a simple gesture, but don't underestimate the sense of euphoria you can get from this.

so there you go, a study tip i find extremely useful and thought i should share :)
procrastinate all you like, but just make sure you get everything you've set yourself on today's list red-crossed before you go to bed!

x

farewell my loves

byebye my malaysian friends :) it's only a 10 day break, but for some reason i feel pretty sorrowful. a bit like this is a trailer of the real departure in august for university. bye nai! have fun in manila. does manila have beaches? and tuk tuk cars? oh wait i think thats thailand. but whatever. take lots of pretty pictures ya? and bec have fun at your grandma's! remember its pretty much the last chinese new year you can spend properly with your family. lidia and bindi, stay safe in penang. study much k? and be happy. bindi, no emo-ing! wen lu and janice wo ai ni :) and please study hard this holiday. and and Auntie Han, happy chinese new year!! :) i hope you'll enjoy this holiday with your family. gen, iyune and shaen, enjoy yourself wherever you go la:) and midori, stay safe and dont study too hard:P
carol & cheryl see u in singapore

yay i've said all my goodbyes. i can leave happily now:P

i was saying bye to my dogs, and telling them how they should not run outside the house, should eat more, should play with each other, should not.... and then taku got distracted by a lizard and ran after it. how rude :(

i still think

adam lambert is smoking hot.

like omg, i dont care if i sound like a bimbo, hottttttt.
and sooo charismatic.

i tried googling that eyeliner he said he's using, but found nothing. can anyone else find that brand? maybe i misheard.

"It's a really, really cool thing to be able to show people that you can be yourself, and you should be proud of yourself, and you should own who you are and what you're about, and never make apologies for it."

And to those who speculate about his sexuality, Adam Lambert tells People, "Calm down," and "keep speculating."

here's a blogpost upon request:

dear mark colk,
i thought your TOK presentation was absolutely fascinating! and i really enjoyed watching that dude from playboy getting waterboarded. *clap clap*
i apologise for having blogged about mitchell's presentation before yours. i was trying to think of the perfect words to describe yours. but it was just too good, and after one night of tossing and turning in bed, dumb me could only come up with "absolutely fascinating". sighh.

PS. it was nice having lunch with you today. eventhough we didnt talk to each other. i hope you learned some cantonese phrases, like char siew bau.

PSS. you should have shared that red bull.

now this is what im talking about (:

"Last night me and my friends went to office depot because we were bored. After a while of just wandering around, we found the swivel the chairs. We started racing up and down the aisles and about five minutes into our intense race an employee started walking over towards us. We though he was going to yell at us but instead he said,” May I join in your fun”. Within the next 15 minutes we were having swivel chair races with 8 of the employees. I think i’m going to come here more often.
MLIA."

"Today, while taking a walk outside, I passed a girl who looked about 11. She was singing “santa clause is coming to town” but with some of the words changed. I didn’t realise what she was singing until I heard “he sees you when you’re sleeping. you knows when you’re awake. his name is edward cullen so be ready to get raped.” you have restored my faith in today’s youth, little girl.
MLIA"

"Today, I was called to the main office. They said I had a family emergency and that I was given permission to go home by my mother. When I got home, I called her right away to see what was going on. She told me she forgot to harvest her strawberries on Farmville and she wants me to harvest them before they die. I was too late. MLIA."
(this last one's just pathetic...:P )

silence in the library please

today i shall blog about mitchell, seeing that he's sitting right opposite me staring at midair with that seemingly intellectual look in his eyes. he's just shifted his econs textbook, interlaced his fingers, and are staring at my feet. he must find my metallic-blue nails appealing. he yawned; when he yawns i'm reminded of a lion, a overly tamed one though :P but one who still holds his ground strong :) Mitchell has biggish ears with short earlobes. He has eyebrows which go like ~ ~, well, maybe not. He has medium sized eyes, medium sized nose, and medium sized mouth. he's taller than me (so is 3/4 of the population in year 12). now he's playing with his hair. now scratching his arm. back to staring at midair again. oo here comes Peter! i love peter's red apple mac. one day i shall have a red apple mac. here comes rosie...*hides screen*. Mitchell sniffed, mitchell caught me looking at him, mitchell smiled.
okay i should get back to revising econs.

mmhm:)

'Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing."

''But it's true-''

"Still doesn't mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It is what you do to the people you love; that's what matters. That's the only thing that counts.'


Stephen, in The Last Kiss.

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and you usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. In love, you are very protective and supporting. However, you do need to "feel special" - and it's quite easy for you to get jealous. At work, you are a natural leader. You can help people discover their greatest potential. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist. How you see yourself: Trusting, idealistic, and expressive When other people don't get you, they see you as: Bossy, inappropriate, and loud

What's Your Personality Type?

:)

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
Though there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fears and sorrows
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile



♥

Happy birthday Christene:)

lets just keep it short & simple shall we?
I wishhhh
you'd getting happier & happier, day by day.

you'll get there ;) .

:)

unjustly

Name: apple
Date: 3/3/2009
Colorgenics Number: 07125346

At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

It is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no one to rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you'll have to make the best of things as they are.

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.

It is strange that the anxiety that you are experiencing at this time is of your own making simply because of your desire to be respected by your fellow man and with those whom you work with. You are not satisfied. The normal congenial 'you' is becoming quite introverted. This is becoming increasingly more obvious because you seem to shy away from participating in everyday activities. You are refusing to allow yourself to become involved or to participate with others and it is the reluctance to communicate that is the inherent cause of your problems.

Hmm..on a scale of accuracy out of 10, i'd give it 9.
The last bit about shying away, yes i do that, but only to one person.

i wanna scream.

i wanna fly.

so blind

This was an email from an australian friend of my mum's who was one of the victims of the recent bushfire:

Hi to all of our friends,

I just wanted to say a big thank you to everyone who was thinking and praying for us, we have had the toughest week of our lives, and today feel that we can start to live again and try to get normal things happening. We have lost many people we know and feel very sad, most of our town is gone, including Holly and Ethans school, kinder and creche. We go into town everyday for the daily meetings and updates and then come home a little depressed as we have to drive back thru desolation. We have highs and lows, but hope with time it will lessen everyday.

Yes we are ok and still have a home, we were very lucky. It was the worst day of our lives and I wouldn't wish what we saw on anyone. The world went black for us on Sat at 5.00 and we weren't sure what to expect, but realize now that a fire front approaching you sounds like your standing next to many 747's with their engines running and the roar is deafening. There was explosions every min with gas bottles and anything flammable blowing up at everyones houses. The street behind us is gone on one side and then everything past that for km's is burnt and piles of houses just burnt to the ground. Our street was burning from all sides and at both ends, if it wasn't for all our neighbours all joining together with our fireplans in place I don't think we would have had the same result in saving our little street.

We Just got the power connected again this afternoon and its great. We have had so much support from everyone and especially from all of the emergency services and power and phone companies. There are literally 100's and 100's of people up here helping us get our services back, I don't think I'll ever complain again to telstra or txu. They have rebuilt a sub station in 5 days, and replaced who knows how many powerlines and poles. Telstra has given us phones and chargers if we need them, The gas bottles are given to us to use, the petrol is filled into our tanks and jerry cans, generators given out as quick as they can. We have also been looked after by many volunteers who have cooked all our meals, given us anything we want and who are just there to listen if we want to talk. As for donations of food and goods, the whole of Aust has flooded us with everything, even if we say we don't really need it, keep it for the less fortunate, the volunteers take us by the hand and start filling up bags of goods for us to take home, so we don't have to think about going shopping for a while. Everyone is so nice.

We are on the way to normality and hope to see everyone again soon. Thank you for your offers of help, we appreciate every one of them.
Thanks again
Jodie and Gary, Holly and Ethan


I just wonder why most people only show the greatest acts of kindness when things are very bad. When its too late. I guess this is what forms Regrets. Knowing, Doing, Trying to patch things up, only when its all too late. You only realize that something was THAT important to you, when you no longer have it.

And i found out something about myself, i cry only when i see sadness inflicted upon others, or when someone does something touching. I dont cry when sadness is inflicted on myself. It all gets stuffed inside me, it builds up, & i dunno where it goes. Maybe people who see it in my eyes suck it away from me. Slowly. Or maybe it just stays there, a part of me.


Memories aren't stored in the heart or the head or even the soul, if you ask me. but in the spaces between any given two people.

Lifetime.

took this from Jas' blog, who took it from Yench's blog:

"Love isn’t an act, it’s a whole life. It’s staying with her now because she needs you; it’s knowing you and she will still care about each other when sex and daydreams, fights and futures—when all that’s on the shelf and done with. Love—why, I’ll tell you what love is: it’s you at seventy-five and her at seventy-one, each of you listening for the other’s step in the next room, each afraid that a sudden silence, a sudden cry, could mean a lifetime’s talk is over."

Taken from Brian Moore's The Luck of Ginger Coffey

It's seeing a lifetime in that one moment.

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a multi dimensional wonderland, with many layers. You're the type that always has multiple streams of thoughts. And you can keep these thoughts going at any time. You're very likely to be engaged in deep thought - and deep conversation.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?