inevitable

i've been taking stuff from different places and sharing it on my blog. things that have inspired me, and i hope would inspire you too. but i haven't been writing much. i think i write best when i'm feeling emotional, but recently there hasn't been much of that. i reckon that's a blessing. no new equals good news hmm? so, i'm appreciating this "inner-tranquility" in me. if this is what monks/nuns feel like on a constant basis, i think i understand why one would give up their life to join the monastery.

and i'm starting to suspect that we are all characters picked to stage in a play. but we arent aware of it. a bit like...what's that movie called. omg i cant remember. but you know, that movie where the protagonist's entire life was a movie? in which he was totally oblivious to the fact that he lived and grew up in a movie set? yea, sometimes i suspect all our lives are like that...we're merely stage characters. cos its been too often that i've stumbled across people i know, who knows another person i know, but they're from completely different parts of my life. and it seriously feels like i can conclude that everyone is inter-related somehow. the thought's both spooky and fascinating at the same time.
do you believe everything happens for a reason? i used to believe everything happens randomly. to think that everything has a reason seemed too...mathematical; too rigid and planned. but now i have reasons to believe that everything happens for a reason. our present is set up in such a way because it leads to the falling in place of our future. in the end, everything fits nicely and accordingly, the way it's supposed to.

well, besides me, i would like to make a shout out to wei ling:) i'm so happy for you sweetie! may these glowing days last for a long long time:)

so its november 23rd. with the arrival of december, we can almost say goodbye to 2009. another year gone hmm? i find myself sighing a long sighhhhh in response to this realization. a sigh of relief, of how fast time is passing, and how quickly we're all growing up, of content. a sigh for adversity, for the feelings i've tried to hold on to - but have inevitably let go of; for all the things about this world that i ought to have learned and accepted by now; for the people i've met, and the people i've lost; for life. a sigh of happiness, of sadness, of maturity, of simplicity, of sacrifices, of love.
and of time.