contract.

i'm in one of my writing moods, but i don't have anything specific that i want to write about. i'm actually really sleepy now, but the thing is, when am i never sleepy nowadays? i have an hour now before i head for a meeting, and i should really use it to study. but should i decide against it and take a nice (and much needed) nap instead?
i can sense changes happening. in me. both mentally, and health-wise. the first being for the better (i think), and the latter being a deterioration. it's the lack of sleep, the hours sitting in the cold, the hours of sitting, the lack of exercise, and the age. mental-wise..i'm able to ignore a lot of the things that i once naively prioritized. i had too much free time back then. nevertheless, when i'm not so sleepy and tensed about my academic achievements, i'm actually still the 5 year old me. but yea, i am capable of shutting out the world when i want to, and i enjoy my own company.