i don't get it.

why is it so hard? why is it...so serious? why are they so different from me? what is the big deal? why that facial expression? what else do they expect? why do i have to deal with that kind of reaction when, hello? i'm an adult, i have the right to decide for myself. and have they ever stopped to think, if they react like this now, how are they gonna get through each day when i'm in college, and not be around to be watched over by them? i know they love me, but this...this seems more like being possessive really. cos isn't love about caring about the happiness of another person more than for yourself? if so, they wouldn't make it so difficult. do they know even know its difficult for me? do they? do they understand? i don't think they do. cos they were brought up this way too. they were educated differently. and i'm sorry but i belong to a different generation, and i cannot take this. so instead of facing the disappointment, i'd rather stay at home and not ask for anything. this rock's too heavy to lift. for now i'll sit around and please your worried hearts. but after i leave, i'll be sure to use that freedom, that freedom i deserve, squeeze it to the very last drop.