you know how sometimes you might imagine something to be a certain way, picture it, perhaps getting your ideal images of it from movies, books, or by seeing excerpts of other people's lives. you imagine yours to be the same, but at the back of your mind you know this is simply a figment of your imagination, it is only there to make you feel better, hopeful maybe.

but what if, this figment actually happens in your reality? And it's everything you've imagined, maybe even better?

and what if, at this moment, half of me is taking it as it is. loving the present, trying not to question nor complicate, trying to take it one day at a time. but the other half of me is wondering when this will mess up, because of course it will. of course it will.

what then?