overlooked.

during lunch today, i learned something from Tim Alvner. Tim is the president of the International Student Association or something. Tim is smart, or so i heard. Well anyways, he ordered a big plate of salad, and two slices of bread. Whilst I dived into my food like a pig, (morning classes make me ravenous), Tim began cutting up the salmon in a poise manner, then his cucumbers. then the tiny tomatoes - into perfect halves. and of course, the lettuces. he then meticulously piled the ingredients onto a slice of bread. it was restaurant-perfect. Tim caught me gawking, and said "yea, people comment about my peculiar way of eating. But I just like to get things the way I want it you know?" why should one settle for second best?

after lunch i had this suddenly huge revelation as to why, instead of searching for love, perhaps i should learn how to love myself more. i'm impatient, i don't do things properly, my wardrobe's a mess, i eat things from their packages, i don't get enough sleep, i seek more than i'm found. There is apparently, another way to live this life. and Tim has indirectly showed me. I need to treat myself better.

on a separate note, i must really control my spending. i have splurged for the past 3 weeks, and used $5000 instead of my planned $2500. now i'm barely surviving with the money i earn from tutoring. i need to sweep the floor, make my bed, get some proper sleep, and study.

by the way, as i was walking back to my hall I saw this FREAKIN GIGANTIC spider hanging on a tree. it was like the size of my two hands or something. i've been spotting tiny spiders in my room recently. maybe they are all the babies of the freakin huge mother. maybe hkust will get taken over by some spider-mutant-attack and we don't have to attend classes for a week or something. mmhmm.