during the exam period, i had trouble falling asleep. to the extent where i thought i was developing insomnia. i thought, oh god, this must be the first signs of aging :P fortunately, the beginning of this summer has brought my precious sleep back. summer, summer, summer, it still feels kinda unreal that you're finally here. in the past two weeks i have: gotten my driving license, watched shrek 3, had a carboot sale, went to queensbay with the girls, went uni stuff shopping with mum, went for morning hill walks and swim with lidia, watched two hong kong tv series, read two books, played the piano, went for piano lessons, went for walks with dad and dogs at night, went to 69, played wii at bindi's, watched dvds with dad, played with dogs, cooked dinner for family, and other small things in between. it's been a well-spent first two weeks of summer :)
coming up is the grad dinner, followed by the langkawi trip. then bindi's leaving, my mum's leaving to macau, nai's leaving, then i'm leaving.
funny, for the past year i've been obsessed with thinking and planning for the future, but now that "the future" is just around the corner, i'm trying not to look it in the eye. there is simply too much i cannot predict. i know everything will be out of my expectations. besides, the present has never been this seamlessly perfect.
right now, there are no what-ifs, no regrets, no expectations, no fear of missing chances, no questioning whether that one action taken or one word spoken was a mistake, no second thoughts. i want to look this moment in the eye and command it, sincerely, to stay.
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