clarity

for the past two and a half days, i have been down with high fever. it felt like an axe was constantly hammering against my skull, my body was freezing, i couldn't eat anything cos when i tried i would just want to regurgitate it. and for a moment, i actually wanted to choose death. but one thing good came out of being this sick: amidst the throbbing headache, my mind had a moment of clarity in which i saw what was the most important to me. and so, i'm grateful for the two and half days of suffering.