no more shilly-shallying.

i wrote a very long post and then decided to delete it and sum it up to:

i dislike waiting.

i dislike waiting for things to happen.

i dislike wondering what could happen but not have definite answer or a guarantee.

i like certainties, i like knowing what's going to happen. i prefer plans to spontaneity or surprises. i like having a clear picture of everything. i like doing and finishing things now instead of keeping it for later, so that it's done and i can put the thought behind me.

i despise being held up in the middle.

so i have to decide: it's either take it or leave it.