i wish..

things for you, whatever they are, do not have to be this complicated. i wish you didn't have to worry or fear or feel upset. i wish the bad things would leave you, and that you'd step back into our circle of friends, because we're having so much fun, and you deserve to share this kind of happiness. look at N, she was upset, but she's happy now. she's content:) And both Bs have once been troubled, by emotional problems, but they've managed to find their way. i have always thought of you as one of the happiest girls amongst my friends, and one of the most mature too. so do you deserve to be constantly riding on this emotional rollercoaster? you know life is bigger than this moment. be happy. so you, whatever's troubling you, may your troubles melt like lemondrops :) . and i know you understand that by worrying about it wouldn't change what has happened. don't force yourself to kill your emotions or anything, that's unhealthy. but don't let the thought weigh heavily on your mind. take this as a lesson, a very important lesson, and i shall learn from it too.
i'm not saying that you're wrong, if i were you i might be doing the same thing, spending the same amount of time with that one person. but don't make the same mistake i did - because at least i still had time to mend things. now its different, its coming to the end of our school years, and i don't want to remember you as the girl that i loved but the girl who was always too busy with something else to be there for us. but its okay, i'm just saying. you do whatever makes you the happiest kay?
i miss you, and i'm sure the other girls miss you too.


remember, let go. K once told me, "if it makes you unhappy, don't talk about it. if it makes you unhappy, don't do it."

love you, you're a beautiful soul.