marriage

recently my dad has started off a new conversation topic with me: marriage, and how to choose the right man. i find it quite strange, cos i remember merely three years ago, my dad was strictly against the idea of me being in a relationship, and now, it's like he's encouraging me to get married in the next few years. i tell him ''i am not going to get married, period.", and he just chuckles and replies, ''usually the people who say that are the first to get married''.

no way.
i tell you, i am not getting married until i have achieved my dreams and has created a lifestyle for myself and my family that i know i'm capable of creating. i think to know whether i really should marry the man, i want to travel the world with him first. even better, i want to travel the world with him, my family, and his family, all together. And because i don't believe in marriages, i will only marry if that was the man who was born to be my soulmate. for a person like me who doesn't believe in anything, believing in a soulmate seems relatively childish. but i think i know one, when i've met one.

today is sunday the 3rd of january, 2010. i am 18 years and 5 months old.

i can either look back at this in the future and laugh at this because i was so naive,
or smile and be even more sure about him, because i was right all along.