purity

just got off the phone. a mere 20 minute conversation, but it really got me thinking, about goodness. i feel so far off, like i can never reach the goodness that she is. but then no one's perfect. and it's not about being like anyone, or comparing myself with anyone. i just need to stand strong in what i believe is right, how i want to live this life, and not be so vulnerable to external influences. lies, parents, hookups, marriage, waiting, ''meant to be''s, and the past. it's hard for us to convince each other because we both adhere so strongly to what we believe in. and we both stand on different grounds. but what i like about her is her goodness. and talking to her kind of replenishes my mind. she reminds me of the bigger picture, and she reminds me of this thing we sometimes forget - our hearts. she reminds me that amongst all the confusion, there is still goodness.

i'm so far off from being good, but it's soothing to know that i have changed. i have improved, from the me i used to be. it's important to self-reflect.

and yes, perhaps the result is not important, and it's the wait, that makes it something beautiful.

forgive my mistakes.