distance.

well if you asked me, i'd say i feel really good. And it feels like things were arranged this way. and the best part is that i understand it, and i genuinely like it. There may be a few nights when i had eyed the situation indignantly, when i had hugged a pillow so tightly, pretending it was you. but even the greatest of rage eventually fades. I cant tell what is going to happen in the near future, heck, i cant even predict tomorrow. but like you always say, ''live a good life'', and i am living one. I'm enjoying the day by day process of not having you here. I like how i get up every morning now to go for my solitary runs, and the shower afterwards is my precious reward. i like how im actually working now, i dont procrastinate anymore. i like how im meeting my friends a few times a week. i like how i read every night before i go to bed. And i like how i know that on the other side of the world, you are smiling like you always do.

i'm living my own life now, by myself. I love it this way.
Cos one day when i meet you again, i'd have to share my life with you. And we'd have so many stories to share. So much to learn from each other.

I don't write to you anymore. I find that words written to you can't really express what i feel inside; and i dont like expecting your replies. Although you always say the right things.
It ain't very long till i'll see you again.
This is new you know?
I've never felt this grown up.


so goodbye kaiser,
for now.