if you asked me

i'd tell you that once upon a time, i had everything.
& it was so simple, yet it was all i needed.
we cannot keep looking back into the past, if we want to move forward. yea but sometimes the past is all we got. & i tell everyone if i had a choice, if i had known, i would not have it let happen. but the truth is, i cant remember ever Living before it.
what Time can do.
forgiveness, is a funny thing.
you were wrong, but so was I. And I dont trust you, i was right not to trust you, but you're still the one i would trust the most.
we've all said things we meant at the time, but dont mean anymore afterwards. So at the time when it did mean something, i advice you to grasp on to it like it were the only thing that'll save you. in the end it'll turn around and be the very thing that kills you. but, so what.
i know you know me, and you know i know you. we're all just lying. we're all just young.
mum asks me why i've become so cold. i say im sorry, i say i dont know. but i wonder if its because nothing...is there. i didnt do it intentionally you know? it just happened. a biological psychological kinda thing? i gave all the warmness to you my dear, and now maybe i gotta retreat & recharge. im working on myself these days, finally settling down to focus on academic achievements, developing friendships, looking after my dogs, that kinda thing people do you know? :) and i can say im happy. how are you? like really, how ARE you? i suppose you're happy too, i suppose you've got all you need as well. that's good. finally i see that's what really matters.

these things i cant say to you.

i'll see you when i see you.