carol's right you know? why does the world always have to revolve around me, me and me? but its hard to change just like that, give me some time? (: i'll make this one of my life's aim. one that i'd want to achieve in a year's time, if possible. i wanna be able to give, and expect nothing in return. it'll be super uper hard at first, it'll hurt, i'll ask myself WHY. yah it'll really hurt, especially for a person like me - someone who had always expected.
& another thing is, i'm not looking for anyone anymore. i dont need another person. today over lunch wei ling & i had this conversation about feeling "complete" just being by ourselves? and later on in life, a guy who's also "complete" will come along, and two complete circles will join together...to form..um, an oval. lol.
yea, but i figured, i simply have too high expectations. I need to set myself right first. i need to figure out who i really am, what i really am. What i really want, what i really need. And at this age, i dont think anyone is really right to be with yet. We all need to mature and be more...Stable, and certain of Ourselves first, before we start taking care of someone else too. So, i'm gonna find my way. i'll claw my way through this bushy forest of IB, and i'll come out of the other side, hopefully, as a woman with sunshine on my face.
:)
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