i was reading through the first few blog posts i've made on this blog.
i sounded so....happy &... light.... that it now seems..weird.
that me who typed that blog post 3 months ago..seems so unfamiliar to the me now. i used to blog about my daily events, like every moment was worth noting down, like every moment was so precious to me. but nowadays, i write mosty thoughts. reflections. i'm still thinking about the past. they say reflections are for those who are trying to re-live their pasts, twice over.
i have matured a lot in merely 3 months. but maturity is not necessarily doing me good. maybe i just want to be the child i was before. ignorant, unharmed.
was reading through the diary that midori, carol, julie & I share too. The 3 of you have changed a lot too. I'm pretty sure if we went back to read the very first diary we had, we'd all go ''holly mama, was that me?!". Yea, we have changed a lot. It makes me have the thought that one year from now,i'll be so different from the apple i am today. So never ever assume that you can predict the future, cos changes can surprise you so much you'd fall off your chair.
"The hardest thing in the world is believing someone can change. It's always easier to go along with the way things are than to admit that you might have been wrong in the first place."
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Maturing isn't a nice thing to go through. Because of my family background and wrong steps I took when I was an earliteen, I was forced to mature early.
I see things very differently from my peers, as in people who are around my age, I tend to act very "aunty" and I can't seem to comprehend childish acts of others. That was like, until several months ago, I started to really show my hyper side, after being “aunty” for more than several years. To tell the truth, I’m not as extraverted as I seem, I need time to be on my own, to “charge” my battery XD
I, too, have lots of "personal insights" posts (I refuse to call them "reflections" after reading your definition XD) in my diary blog (well I have several blogs, for different uses), honestly I don't think anyone reads them.
Then again, it makes me feel much better to have things in my mind written out. These things which just pop into your head during the most random times, whether you're at the shower, reading a lyrics sheet, humming a tune, playing piano, listening to a certain conversation... Suddenly you just get this "inspiration", I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY. Right?
You're accepting your new self pretty well I see^^ Trust me, you'll LOVE it soon, just as I love myself now (a little too much already, actually XD)
You can check out how weird my scope of "personal insights" can be when you're available LOL http://denise-dinc.livejournal.com/tag/personal+insights
*keep smiling*
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