consequences

when i look around myself now, i see people getting hurt in different ways. But this time i dont console them by saying, "its okay...everything will be okay." I dont secretly wonder WHY they have to take things so seriously, WHY they are so stupid,to put themselves in so much pain. They DO have the ability to control their minds and their feelings, so why cant they just STOP and move on?? there are so many other things in life.
but now i understand. maybe too well.
there are some feelings, some people, that you can never forget. no matter how much you want to.
and so all i can do for these friends, is to feel their pain along with them. tell them i know what they feel like, i really do. and tell them that ''yes, u know time with heal it all, but u wonder HOW LONG this time thing will take... but it'll come. the waiting is torture. but at least u hv something to wait for".

Cos sometimes when you're standing at the edge of the cliff & you're left with no other choice - you jump, & after the long fall, when u finally hit the ground and feel the excrucraiting pain - the painfullest it can get.... ohhh, you'd be surprised. very surprised. you never knew this kinda pain existed. you didnt know that life could really be this cruel. but as you lie there, broken limbs and all, in your pool of blood... you look up and u see the wide sky above. you see that although you've fallen, everything else in the world is still the same. nothing will change for you. especially not the person who made you fall.
& so you tell yourself to start breathing again. Only You, will be there for yourself. In the end, its only you.

you see the distance that you've fallen.
& then
you sigh with relief, that it is finally

the end.

& the next time you jump off a cliff,
it wont be that excruciating pain again. you'd hit the ground, and you'd smile and say, ''oh hello ground, i've met you before :) you dont hurt me no more. "