FINALLY :)

ok, im doing this. i really am this time. I dont know how long this feeling will last, but for right now this moment, I can 100%, clearly, comformitively, without doubt, say that I AM GOING TO MOVE ON. yes my mind and my heart is totally convinced. I am really going to put effort into doing this now. And I want you guys to all witness my amazing progress kay?

yes, something did happen to make me make this decision. but i promised, so i cant say what, i am sorry. But in a way, the bad thing that happened is a very very good thing, cos it's saving me from this illness i have been suffering from for so long - maybe even too long. So there IS a cure after all:) And thank god it came now, and not any later:P:P

no more doubts, no more suspecting, no more seeing the spark in his eyes and wondering if he feels something, no more reading his poems n thinking it has anything to do with me.
I finally have a clear answer. From the boy who lives in "I dont knows" and "I'm sorry" and "oh shit! I forgot", i FINALLY, mercifully, have a clear answer. Thank you very very very much.

So ignore the poem i wrote in the previous entry k? there's not gona be anymore of that "arguous game'', cos there wasnt one in the first place, it was all in my silly mind:P and from now on, there wouldnt be any ''enigmatic smiles'' okay people?:) all my smiles will be real and from the heart from this moment onwards.

THANK YOU everyone who was here for me all along:):) every single one of you who watched me go through the stages of pain, and was there all the while to support me:) no matter how much I didnt listen to you, you still continued to try hard :). hahahah, now i feel really stupid for all the thoughts that i've come up with :P but this is a good experience. Next time i come across this again, i wont be so easily fooled by my mind:) and it wont hurt this much again.

ahhhh. i was stupid, and silly. i really was. But im just gonna look back , and have a good laugh about this. :)
hello world.
hello ME :):):).

sometimes you might love someone a lot, but no matter how much you love that person, he/she is simply, Not Worth It. :)